Monday, November 2, 2009

Just a few things on my mind....

Over the last couple of weeks (or maybe even months,) I've been thinking a lot about God's plan for my life. In the past, I have dreamed of becoming a nurse and in the last year or so, that goal has been something that kept me going on hard days with the kids. You know, "O.K., in about 4 years, I can go back to school and finish my nursing degree!" Since finding out what's up with my back, I've been considering whether God's using this injury to guide me in a new direction. Realistically, I wouldn't be finished my degree until I was nearly 40. To begin a career that is physically demanding at 40 when I have an injury that may (or may not) flare up again as I age seems a little bit ludicrous and it's forced me to consider my options. Long story short(er) I'm considering taking counselling courses so that I can counsel women who have been through rape and/or assault. I feel like God wants to use what happened to me for His glory. I have no idea what will be required in order to work in this capacity... My thought is that I'd like to work on a casual basis with churches to reach women who have been hurt in this way. God was the reason I was able to heal and move on with my life and I don't want to be restricted from being able to be honest about Who is responsible for my healing. Anyway, just thought I'd share with you what I'm considering and if you are led to pray about this, please do so.
This weekend, Trev had to go to the E.R. because of numbness in his arms, hands, and fingers and extreme pain in his neck(he had hit his head on the roof of his truck after hitting a bump in the road.) The physician on duty agreed that something has obviously worsened with his neck (he has 5 bilateral herniation's in his cervical spine,) but since he could still move his extremities, he didn't warrant an emergency MRI. This is so frustrating to us! The doc suggested contacting his neurologist this week and asking for an MRI on his neck. Unfortunately, it takes about 9 months to get in to see him! Please pray about this. Trev's in so much pain now, even though he's on several different pain meds. I don't know how he can keep existing like this! God has granted us both peace about this. The old Beckie would be freaking out right now, stressed beyond belief, losing sleep, not being able to eat... That's not the case now. God continues to remind me that He has plans for Trevor and that He is bigger than anything we could encounter. "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future!" Praise God!
Saturday was Halloween, which I hate, but one really neat thing happened to Eli at the tail-end of trick-or-treating. A woman down the street from us told Eli that he would get an extra handful of candy if he could sing her 'Jesus Loves Me.' Obviously, Eli knows the words like the back of his hand and he rattled off the song, making this dear woman's day. She told him that he was the only child who'd been able to do it all night and he deserved something special. Eli must have noticed that he was being rewarded for knowing praise songs because he decided to sing her the Doxology as well! The woman, amazed and delighted, gave him another handful of candy and $4! I took the time before bed to explain to Eli that we don't sing praises to Jesus because we get rewards from people, but because He loves hearing us praise Him. I think Eli got it!
I had an interesting visit this afternoon from a man named Butch, believe it or not! Butch's mother and Mrs. Merrick (the woman who sold us her home) are very dear friends and have been since the 50's. Butch stopped by this afternoon to tell me that Mrs. Merrick is just so thrilled that a young family is living in her old home and to ask if maybe he could bring her by sometime near Christmas! Of course, I said that they are welcome anytime. I've thought about Mrs. Merrick a lot while doing our reno's and have wondered what she'd think. The last thing I want is to upset her with the changes we've made and I asked Butch to be sure to tell her that we have made some fairly big changes so that she's not shocked when she walks in the door. I'm excited to meet her and to have my kids meet her. One cool side-note here.... Butch took piano lessons from Mrs. Merrick in this house in the late 1950's... A kindred spirit, to be sure!

1 comment:

Renee said...

Wow, Beckie, there's a lot going on in your life right now. I will definitely remember to pray for Trevor, that God would bring relief and healing.
It's interesting that you mention wanting to take counseling classes. My husband and I had a discussion along those very lines on Wednesday. I feel like this is an area that I am being led to as well. I think you would make a fantastic counselor, and I admire your reasons for doing it as well. I'll be praying for you too.